Black Or White

Life is tough. Sometimes with people in it. Sometime without people in it.
Without people, you crave for their presence, thinking there will be so much more to your life - friendship, companionship, love.
With people, there is all that you expected mixed with a whole lot of drama- fights, disagreements, misconceptions, disappointment.
Of late, I have been swinging between these two thoughts. To have people in my life, or not.
The thing with this confusion is that you can never be in a situation completely black or white.
You can't just have certain people in your life. There is always some baggage that comes with them. Sometimes you like it, sometimes you don't.
And cutting out someone is not easy either. Thinking of life without them is painful and you keep them in your life, even though they cause you just as much pain, if not more.
I am yet to chose a path. Either way, I hope what I chose brings me some happiness. I could really use a lot of that at this moment.

I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now

I am another one of those rats in the race for the C.A.T. (Common Admission Test) the results if which decide my future.
I know this is what I want to do. I cant see myself doing anything else, really.
But the path isn't easy, not at all. And I am not scared to work hard.
I just think I started my preparation at the wrong time (even though I was told I was too late, I think I started a little early)
There is just so much pressure building up. I have my finals less than 4 weeks away and I know absolutely nothing.
I have never been this unprepared for an exam in my life. EVER.
Added to that attending CAT coaching and not giving it my best, forget best, I am not even giving it my worst for now, just adds to my worries.
Help me God, if you really exist!

Bleed Blue!

INDIA WON THE CRICKET WORLD UP 2011!!

I am not an ardent cricket fan but there was just something about this World Cup that got me glued to the television.
The fact the India made it to the quarter finals. Played against Australia and won!
Heading into the semifinals, against Pakistan. One helluva match that!
And today, against Sri Lanka. What a match!
India started off with great bowling and fielding, limited Sri Lanka's score very well. Their batting started with some major disappointments (read: Sehwag out on 2nd ball and Sachin followed soon!) but Gambhir and Kolhi took charge and led India forward, follwede by Dhoni and Yuvraj. The six in the end was just the perfect finish!
India has improved from match to match through the tournament.. And to finally see the cup in Dhonis hands was a moment of sheer joy! Everyone dedicated the win to Sachin, which was a very warm gesture.
All in all, great cricket , great win.
GO INDIA!!

Midnight Munching

I started exercising again yesterday after good about 6 months.. And tonight i am munching on namkeen.. So much for me trying to lose weight..
I started my day today with plans of studying.. Exams are a month away and I have no hope of passing! This is what happens when you have exams only once a year! We have internals but since they aren't the deciding factor they don't gt as much importance..
All i have done today is facebook and reading the newspaper (yes i like reading the paper)
Result - I am doomed!

Life.

I miss talking for hours at night.
I miss those early morning hello's.
I miss using your name to get out of the house.
I miss going to your house.
I miss you coming over.
I miss how we spoke with our eyes.
I miss having a million pictures with you.
I miss making plans with you.
I miss our laughs.
I miss having friends.
I miss having a life.


For now soaps and shoppings keeps me happy,
But does that count? :|