One new year wish:
Wants more people to like her.
Wants fewer strangers to dislike her.

Happy New Year! :)

Love Wedding

Since I was a little girl I dreamed of a prince on the white horse.. I knew I wanted to grow up, fall in love, get married.. 

Yes, I always wanted to get married.. 

Knowing this fact was kind of comforting.. How you ask?

There was something in my life that was certain, something I knew I wanted..

But now that thought is changing.. And this uncertainity about the future isn't comforting..

I don't know what i'll be doing next year, don't have anything to look forward to or aim at yet.. And its scary, this blur..

Aimless!

You know one of those moments when you look at a particular person and think, he/she should be an actor, a teacher or a writer.. And then you look at yourself, blank! That's pretty much how the inside of my head is right now. Blank. I don't know what I want to do in life.
For the longest time its been in my head that I will do MBA post graduation.. To achieve that aim I joined coaching too, completed all my classes and then dropped as I hadn't prepared enough for it..
In the last two years of school I thought i'd do a particular course and when the time for admission came, i changed to a different subject altogether because in the 2-3 months prior admission I found it more interesting..
So what was the point of me planning for so long when it had to come down to me changing the plan..? I am still trying to figure that out..
I hope a new plan pops up soon, as its only about 8 months more till I am out of college and heading into nothingness!
Here's hoping for a sorted life in the next few months..

Black Or White

Life is tough. Sometimes with people in it. Sometime without people in it.
Without people, you crave for their presence, thinking there will be so much more to your life - friendship, companionship, love.
With people, there is all that you expected mixed with a whole lot of drama- fights, disagreements, misconceptions, disappointment.
Of late, I have been swinging between these two thoughts. To have people in my life, or not.
The thing with this confusion is that you can never be in a situation completely black or white.
You can't just have certain people in your life. There is always some baggage that comes with them. Sometimes you like it, sometimes you don't.
And cutting out someone is not easy either. Thinking of life without them is painful and you keep them in your life, even though they cause you just as much pain, if not more.
I am yet to chose a path. Either way, I hope what I chose brings me some happiness. I could really use a lot of that at this moment.

I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now

I am another one of those rats in the race for the C.A.T. (Common Admission Test) the results if which decide my future.
I know this is what I want to do. I cant see myself doing anything else, really.
But the path isn't easy, not at all. And I am not scared to work hard.
I just think I started my preparation at the wrong time (even though I was told I was too late, I think I started a little early)
There is just so much pressure building up. I have my finals less than 4 weeks away and I know absolutely nothing.
I have never been this unprepared for an exam in my life. EVER.
Added to that attending CAT coaching and not giving it my best, forget best, I am not even giving it my worst for now, just adds to my worries.
Help me God, if you really exist!

Bleed Blue!

INDIA WON THE CRICKET WORLD UP 2011!!

I am not an ardent cricket fan but there was just something about this World Cup that got me glued to the television.
The fact the India made it to the quarter finals. Played against Australia and won!
Heading into the semifinals, against Pakistan. One helluva match that!
And today, against Sri Lanka. What a match!
India started off with great bowling and fielding, limited Sri Lanka's score very well. Their batting started with some major disappointments (read: Sehwag out on 2nd ball and Sachin followed soon!) but Gambhir and Kolhi took charge and led India forward, follwede by Dhoni and Yuvraj. The six in the end was just the perfect finish!
India has improved from match to match through the tournament.. And to finally see the cup in Dhonis hands was a moment of sheer joy! Everyone dedicated the win to Sachin, which was a very warm gesture.
All in all, great cricket , great win.
GO INDIA!!

Midnight Munching

I started exercising again yesterday after good about 6 months.. And tonight i am munching on namkeen.. So much for me trying to lose weight..
I started my day today with plans of studying.. Exams are a month away and I have no hope of passing! This is what happens when you have exams only once a year! We have internals but since they aren't the deciding factor they don't gt as much importance..
All i have done today is facebook and reading the newspaper (yes i like reading the paper)
Result - I am doomed!

Life.

I miss talking for hours at night.
I miss those early morning hello's.
I miss using your name to get out of the house.
I miss going to your house.
I miss you coming over.
I miss how we spoke with our eyes.
I miss having a million pictures with you.
I miss making plans with you.
I miss our laughs.
I miss having friends.
I miss having a life.


For now soaps and shoppings keeps me happy,
But does that count? :|

Love Is In The Air

Happy Valentines Day :)

I hear a lot of people say 'What is the need of a special day to say I love you?'. I get it that you can say I love you any day, anytime and mean it with all your heart but personally I think there isn't anything particularly wrong if you want to dedicate a special day to love. There is a day for mother, father, sister, friends, so why not love?
I am a huge fan of valentines day and all the things that come with it. The whole week of celebrations: Rose day, Propose day, Chocolate day, Teddy day, Promise day, Hug day, Kiss day.. :D

I am in a long distance relationship and as luck would have it my boyfriend had to leave yesterday! :( So i spent today with my best friend. And it was amazing! We haven't had 'our' time in ages and today was just what we needed. We went out shopping and then lunch. I also got her a rose and a chocolate.

We finally went to Hard Rock Cafe. :D A million plans have been made and cancelled and today it happened. Three good hours were spent there, talking and eating, a lot! There was good music and great food.

All in all, a day well spent with someone for whom I have nothing but love. Looking forward to more such days :)

Lets Get This Started

"You know what you should do?"

"What?"

"Start writing a blog"

"Blog? Why?"

"Because everyone is writing one and so should you"

"But I am not much of a writer"

"So what. Just start writing and you will become one!"

This was somewhere in November and since then my dear best friend P has been persuading me to write a blog. I had been thinking about it for a long time and today I finally begin! :)

As the title suggests, this is going to be about anything and everything: friends, studies, family, college, outings, my moods.

Lets see how this goes...